This month, I failed a writing exam at school, registered for classes, and declined loans for this upcoming school year.
My writing exam results did become an underlying issue in isolation mode towards the beginning of the month.
I felt quite disappointed, and ashamed of myself.
Yet, there really isn't any point to dreading how things result in life.
The process of adjusting to a new home, with new people became a task that I had to deal with this month too.
Not that it was a dreadful thing.
It was definitely something new.
This is probably going to be a personal comment, but I also lost the support of my father this month.
I did face a health issue this month as well, hospitalization type of ordeal.
No concern was expressed by my father, just concern for my "stupidity", and the financial aspect of the hospital visit.
All I can say is, I haven't received a call from him, and i'm currently wearing the "Led Zeppelin" shirt that I had purchased for his Father's Day gift.
I am hurt by the loss of support, family is a support group that everyone goes to just because of the genetic obligation. Our blood, and family line has a social/moral contract, which recalls the obligated support in a family.
It can be different for every family, but the support is there somehow.
As of right now, mid-July, I'm content with life--- quite happy.
New people in my life: roommates, co-workers, and new friends, have given me some strength in enjoying life. I have tried new things, which have reminded me of being able to choose---the act of choice.
I also have gained far more responsibilities to deal with, new expenses which have resulted in finance consciousness.
It's quite stressful at times trying to breakdown the finances in a notebook, but it's a learning process.
One of the weaknesses being hand stability, I have butterfingers to the max so my photos come out blurry sometimes even with lens stabilization.
-Karla Yeseñia Lòpez
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