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Thursday, February 16, 2017
- Karla Yeseñia López
02.14.17 : Pleasure & the intellect.
Pleasure is a feeling that can affect emotion. A wave of pleasure that can influence an individuals actions. Examples of pleasures individuals' possess range from BDSM, having multiple partners, preferring a gender over another, or strict "penetration only" relationships.
Institutionally, these pleasures or pleasures that fall out of the heteronormativity can be look down upon because of the man made concept of morality.
Heteronormativity signifies the act of having two binary sexes act upon socially acceptable sexual behaviors. Following binary rules that a "female" or "male" should act up on. These internalized "job tasks" can be seen throughout the contexts of ancient texts on topics of love.
Recently, I have been reading up on various philosophers which challenge or reinforce these ideals.
They challenge the idea of religious influence on individuals, their obsession to obtaining the ideal relationship. A relationship that fits a heteronormative structure (two individuals of the opposite sex).
Yet, Masoch switches the dominating and recessive figures. Contradicting the binary: Male- dominating/active, and female - recessive/passive. 
Masoch uses a goddess figure, Venus in Furs, to show the superiority of women possessing in a relationship. He also introduces a weakened, idiotic character of a male: Severin. Religion is sarcastically praised for his argument of morality:
"The inventors of the Christian marriage have done well, simultaneously to invent immortality".
An ironic twist to religion bringing morality which is praised by society to be the way of living. When religion in Masoch's view introduces the restriction of an individuals own pleasures.
Religion creates rules which influence individuals to be afraid of expressing their pleasures through the encouragement of matrimony.
Despite, religion being the main argument Masoch speaks of, we can not dismiss the other influences that internalize the idea of heteronormativity as mentioned before. These texts of love and the idea of heteronormativity have eased me through a recent breakup with a partner of mine.
My reaction to the ending of the romantic relationship has been dramatic, mainly because of emotions. The pleasure of having someone providing me with endless mushy emotions is the trigger to all actions i've taken in easing my emotions out. I do frown upon the wording i've used in addressing my past partner about the whole situation. Although it's always been the way I take in the news about break ups.
Needless to say, time can only heal wounds. Over time, the friendship that we both held may or may not be regained. Until then, I can say that i'm learning to not question another's emotion or stance.
It's always a learning process for me (break ups) and has made me realize that the time to learn about myself has came. To take initiative in learning what my pleasures are or if having a partner is actually what I seek.
Do I want a partner simply because it has been taught to me growing up that every individual needs to have a partner by their side for the rest of their life?
Or
If I do find a partner in the future, is it just for my pleasure of seeking security?
Pleasure is complex and I don't quite understand the fondness of it.
I for sure know that I am deeply sorry for being rude towards a good friend of mine.
Sorry.
(The pictures are for post decoration and an encouraging reminder to practice on my photography)
- Karla Yeseñia López
02.07.17 : Crying baby meltdown.
These 'rascals' provide a joy to us old farts when we are consumed by life issues. Deep in our stresses over bills, heart breaks, laundry, and food.
One little gesture or hug by a child gives you, can take away the every day stresses for just a split second.
Yet, they can provide the horrendous tantrums that make you question:
"Why did I wake up this morning?"
"Why am I here?"
or my favorite of them all:
"Is it possible for them to just... SHUT UP?!"
Obviously, these questions remain just in thought. Unless you are a savage individual that doesn't mind getting a blank look from the wide eyed alien looking specks.
Just thinking about the daunting look they give as a sign of a waving white flag/apology. Gets me an awe? It's interesting how much power they have as individuals when they don't even know the difference between "you're" or "your".
I mean even certain grown ups can't tell the difference between the modified "you's".
Grammar is tricky. I don't blame y'all.
My point is that, kids just don't get the whole grammar function or the function of decision making at an adult life scale. Yet, they can manipulate someone with a daunt look.
M I N D B L O W I N G.
I work with children.
Children from six months to 2-year olds.
The group most fascinating to me is infants, mainly because I work one on one with them. They can cry for hours and still have vocal chords to cry for several more.
Honestly, singers or any vocal artist should take notes because they hold the power of maintaining their vocals in shape.
The other day I had the luck of having an infant cry bloody murder for three hours out of my five hour work shift.
My co-workers tried their best to assist me with the child and my sanity.
To my dismay, the child wasn't complying to anything or anyone and as for my sanity. It was at its peak for a sudden meltdown.
I knew from then that there was no turning back from having a great day.
To allow myself the relief of finishing a dreadful shift. I let some tears out when I walked out of the day care building and made a playlist to commemorate the stressful day.
Yes, playlists make me feel soooo great and I love to share music with people.
It's an awesome way to know someone and communicate.
Therefore, I have decided to share the Crying Babies Meltdown playlist with y'all.
Moral of the story: If you are having a shitty day, make a playlist and share it with someone.
(You can follow me on Spotify fyi. I won't be weirded out or anything.)
- Karla Yeseñia López
01.26.17 : Thinking too much!!!!!!!
If you are seeing this right now, i'm currently having a little mental meltdown.
Highly due to the constant change our society is going through with the decision making an individual of zero common sense is doing.
If you are unaware of what i'm talking about, click on these links:
Yes, I am normally scared to talk about politics because I tend to not have a fast response when someone refutes my opinion. The awkward silence that follows is just embarrassing to me. Then the various thoughts of the end to my life/career of being a journalist come to mind.
A whole mess of unwanted thoughts that are detrimental to my strive of becoming a successful journalist.
Another thought that is also melting the insides of my brain. The idea of not being able to succeed in a career that I really want to do.
Hopefully i'll be able to direct more of this fear in another post but i'm going to leave this post at what it is right now.
- Karla Yeseñia López
01.14.17 : Hey.
I find it quite interesting when others point out the annoying mannerisms I do.
Obviously I don't seem to catch them but that's the great thing about having close peers right?
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| Some ppl I love on film |
A phrase/behavior that I seem to do quite often is ending an unfinished thought or question with "never mind".
It seems quite often that it's even had my partner on the urge of pulling his own hair out (or what is left of it).
As I reflect on it now, my purpose isn't to annoy anyone. It's just a habit that I can't scratch off or fling off of me. The habit is implemented in the crevices of my brain.
If it were easy as just a phone call away, trust me that phone call would have been done a long time ago.
I mean come on imagine how juicy that phone call would be:
"hey."
"yo."
"gtfo."
"nope, i'm staying here until someone explodes from annoyance"
"damn. alright. see you later then".
I mean... WOW! Us millennials really know our ways with words especially in persuading others.
Well other than that spicy phone call fore play.
We as humans of numerous capabilities can tend to fall into habits that we don't necessary notice or like.
It's hard to get rid of them.
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| Partner in crime |
The lack of finishing my thought is a major annoyance compared to the personal lagging habits of keeping up with my blog and photography.
Not a day goes by without me thinking about posting a blog or photographing, yet I never find the motivation to do so. I either end up with writers block or intimidation.
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| The Garden @ The Getty |
It's the fact of comparing myself to others that bleeds out the motivation out of me. I get anxiety, and fear. Emotions that have deepened lately to the point where isolation is a necessary serving aid to smooth out the ridges.
I find it quite funny how emotions play a role in someones life.
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| cool water @ The Getty |
Come to think of it... it's rather a leading factor in someones life.
I have pushed those draining emotions to the side for the night to follow through with updating this blog as well with picking up my photography.
Well this post is sort of deep which is not where I was going for? A little out of my comfort zone to be quite honest.
I have also recently picked up photography both on my fancy camera and on disposable cameras. Something also out of my comfort zone.
Hey. I am back.
-Karla Yeseñia López
September 28, 2016 // "A whole lot of CRUDE (oil)"
45 days.
45 days of school.
45 days of waking up at 5am.
45 days of budgeting & stressing over bills/food.
45 DAYS.
Honestly it feels as if i've been in S.F for far more longer than just a month. School, work, club meetings, counseling appointments and massive amounts of reading assignments have been keeping me busy 24/7.
It isn't a bad thing of course to be busy all the time, but it's just crazy to sit down one day out of your busy week on a gray, sad looking, smelly couch (thanks gassy roommates!) & realize WOW. It has only been just a little over a month that I have done all the grown up crap.
I N S A N E.
So far, this school year has been great! I've learned more about my school & the resources that are available to me. Investigating programs/organizations that will help me thrive in pursuing a career in journalism. I find it interesting that once as I started becoming active within the school community, an intimidation for individuals (peers, professors, & counselors) started to develop in me. This intimidation did stop me from building connections with famous journalists such as Steve Dorsey, a guest speaker in my Journalism 200 class. At that moment I realized that this anxious feeling that was stopping me from reaching out to individuals was going to hold me back from even progressing in becoming a journalist.
A journalist needs to be able to communicate with people.
A journalist is for the people.
A journalist investigates & does so by reaching out to people, creating connections.
This epiphany pushed me to strive in becoming "people friendly" by getting over this nonsense intimidation that had built within me.
It's honestly "mind fucking" how sometimes individuals that hold a strong title to their name can be the most down to earth individuals.
Just the other day, I met up personally with both my advisor for the journalism department & professor for my journalism 200 class. At first glance, they both seemed very intimidating to me, especially with their doctorate degree hanging above their heads & flashy "Berkley" "Stanford" alumni merchandise.
Yet right when I started to communicate with them of my goals in becoming a journalism and obstacles that I am facing. They instantly became my personal hype group and cheerleading squad. Honestly it was heartwarming, I felt at home which is hard to feel when I am actually away from home.
The boost of enthusiasm from these mentors have pushed me to take my awareness of societal issues into far more depth.
Our information of any issue comes from any sort of medium: social media, newspapers, magazines, podcasts, radios, etc.
However do people really consider the point of view they are trying to highlight?
Whether if it's a structural or episodic view in which a story is being portrayed on a certain issue?
In other words, is the story being told through the lens of a character that most individuals can relate to? A mother figure, sibling figure, economically poor individual, etc?
or
Is it being told through no objective point of view?
The most recent story of the Dakota Pipeline is a great example to consider these factors. There isn't much information of the certain issue. It took me quite a bit of time to find recent updates of the events taking place at the work site in North Dakota. Other than the primary information of the start of all this mess, which you can read up on here.
So far, i've read up on structural views which have little to no information of the new update of the 20-23 protestors (inaccurate numbers within all the published articles) charged of various "assaults" done to the armed forces. It's rather just stating a fact, not listing the causes climaxing to the action of incarceration.
Most commonly seen within these articles is the only mention of a protestor being on horseback, illustrating a more violent prone image compared to an officer on feet. However the twist in this scenario is rather than speaking of the weapons used for threatening purposes (in this case the officer possessed) these readings choose to highlight the sole image of the protestor on the horse.
Of course the images used in mostly all of these articles were images from the protestors themselves. Giving themselves credibility for being harmless over the whole situation and trying to avoid the most possible violent exchange with the police force.
Do we trust then the non objective view for news or do we look into the different episodic news from both sides for our own evaluation of the whole situation?
Do we grasp on to more detail about the whole scenario this way?
I have yet to read more about the side of Bakken & Three Forks production on their push for the pipeline in all honesty. The main reason that I haven't lurked into this point of view in depth is because i'm exposed to the point of view of the people rather than huge corporations in conflicts through my ethnics class.
On that note.
I'm going to research more on this matter about the Dakota Access Pipeline to see far beyond the highlighted conflict media illustrates.
Until then, here are some sites/videos of these groups views on the whole situation.
Protestors:
https://youtu.be/rfVCKXnZu58
https://youtu.be/haGFaOE0uoY
https://youtu.be/U8Uwo6ZAEG4
Oil companies:
http://www.daplpipelinefacts.com/
http://www.ogfj.com/articles/print/volume-10/issue-12/features/three-forks-vs-bakken.html
¡¡Hasta Luego!!
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