Isn't it great to wake up and realize that the world is self-destructing in a matter of seconds while the worries of class assignments, relationships, and food consume your thoughts as a free individual?
Hurricane Irma is currently taking lives, tearing apart infrastructure, and enticing victims of the storm to go against their human morale by stealing necessities such as food, and gas.
The category two storm according to CNN, is making its way throughout Florida at this moment. Changing the community physically while the thoughts of every person being an enemy of mine are surfacing in my head.
Do I feel selfish?
Yes.
Is my acknowledgment helping with the crisis in Florida?
No, but it's helping me cope with the fact I can't do much for the people in Florida.
I can only do so much as an individual by hearing the people that are being affected by it, whether if it's their family or emotions towards the situation.
This cynical view on people as of lately has made it hard to sympathize and understand individuals.
The issue at hand is whether I can trust people I care about, those who are trying to build a friendship with me.
Lately, I've been emailing a fellow sister about the idea of straying away from the cynical idea whether if it's towards individuals or their ideals.
We have been giving each other details of our intake on it, whether if it's progression with accepting these people or not.
The last email I sent this chica is an experience I dealt with this past weekend where someone took advantage of a set of vocalized goals about my future career to possess something of me, blackmailing basically.
A "this for that" type of ordeal but for a trade off of an interaction which I've had a hard time coping for a while.
It is insensitive of this other person, but it's an ongoing pattern for people who try to get close to me recently.
Am I dramatic of this?
Yes and I know I am dramatic, but these people could care regardless of how I am so why care if I
kindly tell them to eat some distasteful substance while they exit my life?
After all, far more devastating situations are happening in this world like Hurricane Irma, so an act of drifting people away from me to be an imprinted shun on my forehead is dumb.
I don't care for individuals to like me anymore, if I don't come off as friendly, or come off as pretentious.
I have a reason, and that's about it.
- (Drama Queen) Karla Yeseñia Lopez
