Life is shit.
It seems to be the case currently with school and work on my hands now.
My current schedule is school everyday from 9am to 2pm,and work every other day from 4pm to 11/12pm. Of course I try to fit in naps and exercise in between the chaotic disorder of me trying to get my crap together.
By crap together, I mean getting all my school work on time and prepping some half-assed meals.
I still find myself however lacking in certain areas of interest I enjoy, blogging and creating videos.
At times, it really upsets me that I can't do things like I used to or hang out with my friends as often.
I feel lonely at times.
The other day as I was making my way to work on the sloppy freeway to Embarcadero, I began to feel a heavy feeling of sadness on my chest. Tears began to roll down my cheek, and my lips were quivering. My vision was blurry, the road seem to look like the rainbow road in Mario Carts, bright colors with no harsh edges.
In reality, the colors of the freeway were dull and far from appealing. I was fooling myself mentally that everything was some awesome trip off of acid or any other hallucinogenics.
Later on that day, I realized ... I was indeed tired of everything?????
This realization encouraged me to start working on the hobbies I let go, stop whimpering over the fact I don't have time to do things like I used to because in reality, you need to suck shit up and do what you have to do.
Crying over something won't help the fact, you still need to complete a certain task.
Crying is simply a temporary emotional release to chill the fuck out.
I composed a small video of clips that I had previously recorded throughout my stay here in San Francisco.
I also have been doing photo shoots for my good friend Zoey's blog!!!!!
She is gorgeous & honestly without her asking me to do pictures, I wouldn't be here writing a blog post.
Much love,
Karla Yesenia López
